The leaves,

They shudder in the wind

With an incapability

To enclose all the gaps

Of my consciousness. 

Two hearts apart
Two embedded souls
Waiting for a cleanse
Of inner salvation.

I miss you more
Than words can describe,
Fly away with me
In a bitter abide

So I guess life is 

All about

Getting over

The constant hurdles

In the road

…..It’s just a constant battle.

Fail -

That’s an interesting word

It makes me feel unaccomplished

Like I’m an incompetent

Human being…

These constant hurdles

Being thrown at my feet

Attacking me like mosquitos

On a humid summer day

Sucking all the life out of me

Encouraging me to

Perpetrate anything

But success.

Lights surround my epiphany of 

A never ending stream

Of Knowledge

Related to my serene identity.  

Send me into a bliss of disdain

As that is all I deserve of this day

Fuel of the riches of my pain

For all I am doing is crumbling today.  

The illumination

Of leaves falling

Colours my vision

Of everything you make me

Feel each day 

Of my life.  

Winter may be coming

But my eternal life

With you

Has began.  

Take a leap of faith

Across the sky

Fill my pores to the fullest extent

Breathe into my lungs

So I can experience

Fulfillment in my life.  

I know that I left you

But part of me didn’t want to.

I know it  was my choice,

The most difficult decision

Of my life.

I know it wasn’t right

As I fought my conscience 

Each and everyday 

Of my time in this life.  

When we were together

It was far from safe,

My entire figure was inevitably tense

As my brain transferred 

Messages of restraint 

To each and every inch 

 Of sensation on my skin. 

As I reflect,

On these days,

I realize that

What we had was real

Something beyond

The extremities of 

A hidden lie.  

My heart was present

But everything else

Shuttered “no”.   

It was as if 

The pulsing actions

Embedded in 

The darkness of the potential

 Future with you

Spoke for me

As if this accomodation

To our life together

Was made up.